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Inspiration/Enlightenment Purpose/Destiny

The Joseph Calling Pt. 1

I was talking to my daughter a few weeks ago about the Grace of YHVH in my life – how real He is, the things He’s shown me, and how the same thing which happened to people in the Bible happened to me. She didn’t seem all that convinced, so I explained by comparing a season in the life of Joseph with a season in my life to illustrate my claim. I still don’t think she was convinced, and that’s ok. She’s still very young. (I just had a thought: I don’t think the basis of teaching my children biblical truths is for them to understand YHVH or His Word better. That’s the overall motive, but I think it’s for them to understand me better – as a person who lives and speaks the gospel, as a son of Him, as a man, as a father who reflects the Father! Therefore, by me reflecting Him they gain more of an understanding of Him in an authentic way. It’s like Yahusha and His disciples for example. He wasn’t just another Rabbi teaching students. It was the Father sending the Son – the perfect reflection and expression of Himself – to father them in an authentic relationship! It’s not important she understands right now. What’s more important is I am convinced and I understand, and I live and continue to speak those convictions to my children whether they “get it” or not!) I was in deep thought when I finished talking to her, overwhelmed with gratitude and humility for what YAHUAH has done in my life. It was a moment for me, and I wanted to capture and document it.

The two years in which Joseph sat in prison after the chief butler/cupbearer forgot about him were the hardest two years of his life. After interpreting the cupbearer’s dream while they both are imprisoned, and in essentially a last ditch effort to free himself from bondage, Joseph begs the cupbearer to remember him when he’s released and show him kindness by telling Pharaoh about him so he can get out. Joseph wanted no part of the dungeon, and honestly, who does? He further pleads his case for grace by telling the cupbearer he was not only stolen out of his native land by unlawful force, but he also had done nothing while in Egypt deserving of prison. Joseph was right to a degree. He had done nothing. Things were done to him. In fact, he was only in bondage because his master’s wife lied on him! However, it’s possible to be right to a degree and not right in full. So, with this judgment in mind, his own judgment mind you, he looked to the cupbearer who represented his last chance at freedom; his only hope to see the light.

Examining this exchange with the cupbearer more closely, we can see the internal complexities and impurities in Joseph, namely resentment. He was hurt about what was done to him – what his brothers did to him, how he was regarded as nothing and sold as property, how he was lied on, how he was undeserving of all these events – and he harbored bitterness and resentment because of it. The past still had a grip on him in other words. The pain, the offenses, and the slights were too much to bear, and while his concern was freeing his body from physical bondage, YHVH’s concern was freeing his soul from spiritual bondage. All the resentment, all the bitterness, all the blame-shifting, all the potential revenge had to die. Why? Well, (1) all of those things had marred his identity and judgment (2) because his purpose awaited; an assignment to govern an entire land’s food supply in a drought, to “save much people alive,” including the lives of the very people he harbored ill feelings towards. There’s no place for soul bondage in purpose. All of it needed to die.

Joseph’s plan/hopes were dashed when the cupbearer “forgot” about him. His dreams were crushed. Has your hopes ever been dashed? Has your dreams ever been crushed? Days turned into months for Joseph, and then months slowly turned into years. I love how the Amplified translates Psalms 105:18. It gives accurate insight into the soul of Joseph. It says “his soul went into the iron,” which means as those days and months passed with no cupbearer in sight, Joseph began to confine himself to confinement. His hope waned from a lot, to a little, to none at all. He was going to die a prisoner in a dungeon. So, with this judgment in mind, his own judgment mind you, Joseph reserved himself to contentment in bondage. All of his trying, planning, and hoping were over. In other words, he surrendered his will – the exact thing he had to do – so Elohim could make him see and know Him and himself on a deeper level.

Some would also say since Joseph’s true identity and purpose was that of a high position of influence, a powerful work needed to be done inside him to rid him of any fleshy desires or motives. I agree! In other words, when Pharoah did send for Joseph and put him in charge of everything, he probably could care less about what came with the position – success, fame, influence, notoriety, women, etc. Joseph was dead. His will was surrendered. All he lived for and cared about was worshiping and honoring YAHUAH with what was left of him – his new, true self. This was salvation and sanctification occurring simultaneously in my perspective. Joseph had never known YAHUAH like this. He knew of Him and was a decent man at heart, but this was different. This was El-Shaddai converting him to His will for his life and bringing him into the reality of the dreams He gave him thirteen years before.

Joseph did not sit in prison for those two years by happenstance; it wasn’t the result of the cupbearer forgetting about him. YHVH was sovereignly working behind the scenes – as He had done all of his life – humbling and preparing His son for the purpose He predestined for his life. What a story. What Grace!

Stay tuned for Pt. 2! Grace & Peace ✌🏾

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The Shampoo Brush

What am I most proud of since the Grace, Spirit, power, love, faith, life, light of Jesus entered my soul? The ability to see. Specifically, the ability to see great lessons in seemingly small or insignificant situations and thingseven a shampoo brush! Tune in for the Grace of Jesus in truth on Holes 2 Whole Podcast. This is redemption. This is purpose. This is Born Leader. Amen 🙏🏾

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Abba’s Love: His Best, His Best

The LORD God loves you for you. He loves you because you are His – His creation, His handiwork, His masterpiece.

He put His heart and soul into creating you – His entire being!! How do you know that Minister Benjamin? I’m glad you asked. Before He made man He said let “us” make man in “our” image, after “our” likeness. Daddy God employed the Son and the Holy Spirit too, so therefore, He used the whole or entirety of His being!! He used everything (everyone) He has to form and fashion you! When He made you He gave you His all! Isn’t that Love? Give Him your all today and everyday! Surrender your entire being‼️

Love gives up everything. Love doesn’t hold back. Love gave man – the crown of His creation, His best – His best. Selah.

Love trusts! The only time you don’t trust, which is fear, is if you have been corrupted, resulting in a distorted view of Love! But perfect Love casts out fear! (1 John 4:18) Oh my goodness; the reason why the LORD entrusted Adam with His creation was because He loved him, not because He thought or knew Adam was going to manage it well!! As a matter of truth, He knew he was going to mess up and mismanage everything, but He gave it to him anyway. Why? Because that’s what you do when love someone perfectly without fear!

Guess what? He never changes. The same thing He did when He created the first Adam is the same thing He did when He recreated the last Adam: sacrificed His best – His first begotten and unique Son – for His best – you, me, and every human being on this planet. Because when you truly love you give (up) your best, and your best is yourself!

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Graves of Greed: Desire & Consequence

This is a generation which craves and desires, but is unprepared and ignorant towards the consequences associated with those desires.

You want what you’re not ready for.
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Relationships/Marriage

My Wife

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I began writing this post two days ago. I was actually almost done with it when I stepped away from my tablet for a moment not realizing my work was not saved. You can imagine my disappointment. I didn’t even want to make the attempt to write it again because I knew it would not have the exact same wording and feel, but such is life (deep sigh). At any rate, this gives me another opportunity to honor my wife, so here I go!

Allow me to brag on my wife today. She left me a beautiful voicemail Tuesday morning telling me how much she loves and appreciates me. Now, she always tells me she loves me, but this message was different. As my custom is, whenever she goes to work I start the car, carry her work bag out for her (that thing is heavy 😂), make sure she gets in safe, and wave her off as she leaves. Well, on Tuesday morning she went to work early, so it was still dark. As I was walking her to the car I stepped on a piece of broken glass. Surveying the immediate area, I realized it was all around the car, like someone just threw a bottle without care and respect for other people or their property. Anyway, I told her to be careful as she got in and I cleaned the glass up when she left. Afterwards, I seen and listened to the voicemail, my heart smiling with joy as I sensed something different and unique in her words. You know how you get the typical “I love you” from a spouse or family member? It’s not that it’s fake or superficial, it’s just “typical.” It’s regular, the normal thing a loved one would say to another, particularly upon leaving each other’s presence. However, this voicemail was anything but. It was original, emotive – it had life in it! Honestly, I knew it was special at first listen, but I didn’t know how deeply special it was until I began writing about it.

The Holy Spirit has recently made me aware of His leading me to hear, listen, read, stumble upon, etc., exactly what I need at the exact time I need it. (This is the true evidence of the Spirit of God in the life of a believer, as He does things on time in real-time‼️) Over the past few weeks (and perhaps longer) I have been in travail, extremely burdened by the weight of the Lord – the weight of vision, the weight of my calling and purpose – the weight I put on myself to fulfill it, the weight of my decision to leave my job, the weight that decision has put on my wife and family. Honestly, I always knew I would personally be ok in everything no matter the weight, so this recent burden was less about me and more about how my various “weights” have effected my family, my wife in particular. Watching her drive off for work is both a blessing and a burden, beautiful and bothersome. I smile when I wave her off, but deep down inside my soul cries in pain every time, as I continue to labor from the deep places of my spirit to make vision reality. I’m laboring with how I can help her – should I go back to work or not, should I do this or that, or just about anything to make it easier on her! In Truth, I know these are contractions – temporary bursts of pain that will lead to the birthing of something beautiful. However, even though they’re temporary they still hurt, and sometimes can last awhile. So, as my mind began to wander from the multitude of thoughts in my head, I began to feel myself break down. Just then, by the grace of Jesus, I began to mouth out loud “I’m not going back. I’m not going back there.” You see, the Lord Jesus freed me from the depths of despair and depression, the bondage of a weak and fragile mind. The thoughts may come and Satan’s weapons will be formed, but the power is in me (the Holy Spirit) to choose to let them prosper or not. I chose and will continue to choose not, and will never return to bondage again. With that statement of faith and love, the Lord answered me from the throne of Heaven with a voicemail message through my wife I won’t soon forget. It wasn’t just a wife leaving a nice, typical “I love you” message on a husband’s voicemail. No, not a chance. It was the Holy Spirit praying and interceding on my behalf, comforting, consoling, affirming, and encouraging me through my wife to stay strong and keep going.

Baby, I know I have been hard to love throughout our relationship. I have made it hard on you with my sudden, impulsive decisions in the past, spending OUR money on MY “dreams.” What did we calculate I spent on my music career? $15,000 – $20,000?? Yikes. I apologize sincerely, and I know this decision just seems like it’s me being my “typical” self. By the Spirit of the Lord, I assure you this time is different, just like your voicemail. And just like He redeemed me He will redeem that money in His time and for His glory. Hang on baby. Trust the Lord and trust me. Thank you for loving me. In Jesus name.