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Inspiration/Enlightenment

A Faith Mindset

I was talking to a former neighbor of mine this morning and he said something in which the LORD gave me immediate discernment. I was telling him about the cleaning business I started and I half-jokingly mentioned how I could use his help. Immediately, he asked how many accounts I had. I told him, and while still offering to help he politely said I needed to get more clients. I wasn’t offended, not in the least. It was as if the LORD was saying, “If you want people to help you/join your team then you need to give them a reason to. You have to make it worthwhile.” It’s not to say your cause, business, service, ministry, etc., is worthless. It’s just not worthwhile. It’s not worth them leaving other things for. The LORD was definitely showing me something, and I knew immediately what it was.

I hadn’t put the word out about the cleaning business. I told a few people, but I didn’t really promote it. Why? I didn’t want to attract or take on more clients than I could handle. It’s mainly myself doing the cleaning, with the exception of a few family members helping me out from time to time, so I didn’t want a lot of business to come without the proper resources and people to provide service. My mindset was to build the team first and once the team was established then I would seek more clients. While this is a logical or reasonable mindset or motive to have, it’s not one of confidence in the LORD’s faith (in me). It’s a safe mindset, not a faith mindset. It’s an ordinary mentality, not an extraordinary! It’s comfortable, not extreme! This is very intriguing to me, even while I write this! If there’s anyone who has received and beheld the LORD’s extreme, lavish, extraordinary Grace and care these past few years it’s me. So, how could I settle for a safe mentality?!?! I’m not sure, but one thing I do know is this: the Lord Jesus did not lavish me with His love and faith for me to play it safe. I’m going all in and all out with this Grace! I am and will be a great steward and investor of the manifold Grace of God!

The LORD brought this back to my remembrance as well. A few months ago, while contemplating starting the cleaning service, I told my wife to start buying cleaning products. I didn’t have any customers mind you, but I felt the LORD nudging me to say and do that. It wasn’t that long after she bought the products the LORD brought clients. Wow. I will never again slip into a “safe” or ordinary mindset. I was gifted extraordinary Grace to be extraordinary, daring, passionate, extreme. This is me. This is who I am in Him. In the name of the Lord Yeshua of Nazareth. Grace & Peace ✌🏾 Amen.

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Inspiration/Enlightenment Purpose/Destiny

Grace: A New Wrinkle

I was in the process of editing and posting a video clip on social media yesterday, and as I was writing the caption the LORD showed me another wrinkle of His Grace in my life.

I was running. I thought I was running to things to fulfill me because I was driven or fueled up by past pain, hurt, failures, etc., and I was. However, yesterday the LORD showed me, within all of the running, I was actually running from the call – His call on my life! I was scared of it. I didn’t want it (think Moses). Like Moses, I wasn’t an eloquent speaker. I stuttered all my life, so the call to lead, minister, and speak the wondrous works of GOD scared me! You have the wrong guy! How is this going to work LORD?!?! You don’t know what You’re talking about! So, an internal battle ensued. On one hand, I knew I was different. I knew I had potential, as there were flashes of promise at different points throughout my life. On the other, I had a speech impediment which crippled my confidence and despaired my soul! So, as Moses did, I ran. I ran to business to find fulfillment. I ran to music. I ran to things, all in an effort to circumvent or bypass the call! Guess what? All of my vain, futile attempts led me to the wilderness – where I encountered the LORD, just as He planned all along.

I ran from speaking. I would crouch and cower in fear! Now, I live to speak and speak to live. Wow. What a Savior. What a Redeemer. What Grace! The Grace of Moses? You better believe it. In Jesus name.

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Inspiration/Enlightenment Purpose/Destiny

I’ve Entered Kairos Time‼️

Time is measured in minutes; life is measured in moments. – Mark Batterson, Pastor & Bestselling Author

If I told you how the Lord Jesus has been moving and leading me by His Spirit the last two years you wouldn’t believe me. I began writing this post a month ago, and as I was putting the finishing touches on it I was led to the latest YouVersion reading plan by Pastor Mark Batterson entitled “Win The Day,” which is also the title of his latest book. The plan is phenomenal to say the least, as Pastor Mark outlines 8 habits to help you “win the day.” As I arrived at Day 7 of the plan (Habit 6) my mouth dropped. I COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT I WAS READING!! Are you kidding me?!?! The sixth habit is everything I began to write about weeks before!! Talk about confirmation!! Confirmation is the business of the Holy Spirit, and these past two years have been breathtaking!! So buckle up and prepare yourselves!! You’re now in kairos time‼️

The ancient Greeks observed two words for time – chronos and kairos. Chronos time is where we get chronological – the standard, everyday measurement of time in sequence. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, etc., sum up chronos, and while this time is important, it is, after all, natural, which always has to bow or be subject to a different, deeper, supernatural time.

Kairos time is divine time, and according to the ancient Greeks (and Wikipedia) is defined as “the right, critical, proper, or opportune moment for action.” This time signifies a moment of grave importance – a moment which must be interpreted, discerned, taken advantage of, acted on!!

Beloved, I don’t know where you are at in life or what season of life you’re in, but if you have been granted the ability or the capacity (which we all have) by the Everlasting Father, the Father of Light(s) to discern a kairos moment you need to act, and that without fear!! There are so many examples in Scripture to illustrate and validate this point it’s a shame, but I’m reminded of the story of four leprous men who decided to “go for broke” by coming upon the army of an enemy camp who had besieged their city until there was no food to ask/look for – you guessed it – food!! Outcasts or “goners” BEFORE their city was famine because of their condition, they basically said, “Why sit here until we die? We’re dead anyway, so let’s go!!” It turns out the Lord had caused the enemy army to hear the noise of war – chariots, horses, etc., and they fled in fear leaving all their goods to be plundered and seized!!

The LORD is our refuge, our strength, the Rock of Ages, our enduring Protector!! Let’s act in faith and trust and be about the Father’s business. Why sit here until we die? This is Kairos time!!

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Children/Youth Empowerment

The Internal Gem

Each one of us is born with the gem within – a unique, divinely implanted gift, skill, or ability interwoven by Daddy GOD into the fabric of our being that naturally attracts people to us. The sad reality is this once pure, internal gem given by a pure and beautiful GOD often gets smeared by the staining, demoralizing effects of living in fallen world.

My children struggle with inclusion and acceptance. They are radically different from most of their peers, and they have had to endure bullying and getting picked on because of it. They don’t have the latest phones, tablets, gadgets, and video games. Heck, they’re not even familiar or able to interpret all the latest lingo of their generation. While we have them shielded from certain things and are raising them differently, I have tried to explain to them on several occasions the reason they have endured bullying and other things is not due to that truth. It’s due to the gem 💎 within – the corruption of it, the smearing of it. This corruption leads to a corrupted conscious OF one’s own self and corrupted confidence IN one’s own self. Furthermore, this causes you to devalue the internal gem and place higher value on the external gems, i.e. material things, clothes, phones, video games, etc., leaving you hurt and unfulfilled.

Never trade the internal for the external – the eternal for the temporary. The gem 💎 within, placed purposefully, intricately in the depths of our soul by the great and glorious Father of mercies is enough. The truth of the gem leads to the Truth of GOD, which leads to abundant life and all that comes with it. In Jesus name.

To my children with Love,

Dad

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Inspiration/Enlightenment

You’re Not Ready Until…

The Word of the Lord came to me saying: “If you’re not ready to fail, you’re not ready.” As I sought the Lord continually on whether I should leave my job upon Him revealing and summoning me by His grace, this is the answer He gave me. The conversation went a little something like this:

Me: Daddy God, how do I know if I should leave or not?

ABBA: You should leave when you’re ready son.

Me: How will I know when I’m ready?

ABBA: When you’re ready to fail, you’re ready.

I knew what He was talking about.

Before the Grace of God illuminated my spirit and restored my soul, I always blamed Him and other people for my mistakes, shortcomings, and failures throughout my life. It was never me or definitely never JUST me. Oh, if my parents wouldn’t have separated/divorced, if my grandma wouldn’t have died, if my mom didn’t have schizophrenia, if I never left the town I had an affinity for, if I didn’t change high schools so much, if I could’ve played sports, if friends and family would’ve supported me more, if music would’ve worked out, if my wife would do this or that – yada, yada, yada. The list goes on. God, people, and things were the cause of my pain, so they deserved the blame. I was just trying to “make it” in the mess. Right? Wrong!! Me trying to “make it” in the mess equated to a hurt boy/man with a weak mind resolved in self-reliance and self-sufficiency, unable to own (take responsibility) my own mess or at least my part in it. You blame whenever you hide the pain (i.e. Adam & Eve). Now, the Holy Spirit revealed all of this to me upon Grace. I was totally oblivious and ignorant to what I was doing and who I had become. This is how I know the Lord has ordained and anointed me a leader and influencer because my life before Him was anything but!! So, essentially what the Lord was saying was – if I could make this decision, fail miserably, own it without fear, and still have a heart rooted and grounded in love for Him without blaming Him for the (potential) failure – then I was ready. I’m ready!!

When the three Hebrew boys were threatened by a fiery furnace they were ready to fail in their faith. In other words, they were ready to die in their faith. They were ready to die (sacrifice themselves) understanding God had the ability to save them, but not the requirement. To put it another way – Daniel and his friends loved and served the Lord God out of pure hearts absent from conditions. They placed no conditions or requirements on God, His promises, law, or anything. If He saves us He saves us. If He doesn’t He doesn’t‼️ It didn’t matter as far as they were concerned. Either way they weren’t serving or bowing to anyone or anything else‼️

The basis of our loyalty to God should not be benefit. Daniel and his friends didn’t serve Him for what they could get out of Him. They desired nothing from Him, yet were willing to present their bodies a living sacrifice to Him (Rm. 12:1). Love always gives, and this was pure, unadulterated, unconditional love. They were intimately acquainted with God and reverenced Him as such, knowing they had no business demanding or assuming He would do anything. Their hearts and minds were refined and purified by the fire (love) of the Holy Ghost BEFORE they went into that furnace. That’s why they felt no hurt DURING the furnace. I left everything for Him, not for Him to work everything out in my favor. (Note to self). If He does or He doesn’t, it’s all up to Him. One thing for sure and two things for certain – I’m not bowing to any other gods. Are you ready to fail in faith? Ask the Lord to lead you and guide you. In Jesus name.

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Relationships/Marriage

My Wife

Photo by YouVersion.

I began writing this post two days ago. I was actually almost done with it when I stepped away from my tablet for a moment not realizing my work was not saved. You can imagine my disappointment. I didn’t even want to make the attempt to write it again because I knew it would not have the exact same wording and feel, but such is life (deep sigh). At any rate, this gives me another opportunity to honor my wife, so here I go!

Allow me to brag on my wife today. She left me a beautiful voicemail Tuesday morning telling me how much she loves and appreciates me. Now, she always tells me she loves me, but this message was different. As my custom is, whenever she goes to work I start the car, carry her work bag out for her (that thing is heavy 😂), make sure she gets in safe, and wave her off as she leaves. Well, on Tuesday morning she went to work early, so it was still dark. As I was walking her to the car I stepped on a piece of broken glass. Surveying the immediate area, I realized it was all around the car, like someone just threw a bottle without care and respect for other people or their property. Anyway, I told her to be careful as she got in and I cleaned the glass up when she left. Afterwards, I seen and listened to the voicemail, my heart smiling with joy as I sensed something different and unique in her words. You know how you get the typical “I love you” from a spouse or family member? It’s not that it’s fake or superficial, it’s just “typical.” It’s regular, the normal thing a loved one would say to another, particularly upon leaving each other’s presence. However, this voicemail was anything but. It was original, emotive – it had life in it! Honestly, I knew it was special at first listen, but I didn’t know how deeply special it was until I began writing about it.

The Holy Spirit has recently made me aware of His leading me to hear, listen, read, stumble upon, etc., exactly what I need at the exact time I need it. (This is the true evidence of the Spirit of God in the life of a believer, as He does things on time in real-time‼️) Over the past few weeks (and perhaps longer) I have been in travail, extremely burdened by the weight of the Lord – the weight of vision, the weight of my calling and purpose – the weight I put on myself to fulfill it, the weight of my decision to leave my job, the weight that decision has put on my wife and family. Honestly, I always knew I would personally be ok in everything no matter the weight, so this recent burden was less about me and more about how my various “weights” have effected my family, my wife in particular. Watching her drive off for work is both a blessing and a burden, beautiful and bothersome. I smile when I wave her off, but deep down inside my soul cries in pain every time, as I continue to labor from the deep places of my spirit to make vision reality. I’m laboring with how I can help her – should I go back to work or not, should I do this or that, or just about anything to make it easier on her! In Truth, I know these are contractions – temporary bursts of pain that will lead to the birthing of something beautiful. However, even though they’re temporary they still hurt, and sometimes can last awhile. So, as my mind began to wander from the multitude of thoughts in my head, I began to feel myself break down. Just then, by the grace of Jesus, I began to mouth out loud “I’m not going back. I’m not going back there.” You see, the Lord Jesus freed me from the depths of despair and depression, the bondage of a weak and fragile mind. The thoughts may come and Satan’s weapons will be formed, but the power is in me (the Holy Spirit) to choose to let them prosper or not. I chose and will continue to choose not, and will never return to bondage again. With that statement of faith and love, the Lord answered me from the throne of Heaven with a voicemail message through my wife I won’t soon forget. It wasn’t just a wife leaving a nice, typical “I love you” message on a husband’s voicemail. No, not a chance. It was the Holy Spirit praying and interceding on my behalf, comforting, consoling, affirming, and encouraging me through my wife to stay strong and keep going.

Baby, I know I have been hard to love throughout our relationship. I have made it hard on you with my sudden, impulsive decisions in the past, spending OUR money on MY “dreams.” What did we calculate I spent on my music career? $15,000 – $20,000?? Yikes. I apologize sincerely, and I know this decision just seems like it’s me being my “typical” self. By the Spirit of the Lord, I assure you this time is different, just like your voicemail. And just like He redeemed me He will redeem that money in His time and for His glory. Hang on baby. Trust the Lord and trust me. Thank you for loving me. In Jesus name.