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I Was Running…

I was talking to my wife and son the other night and the LORD reminded me of the depths of my spiritual calling/purpose.

Ten years ago, I had reached a crossroads in my life, which I didn’t or couldn’t discern as a crossroads at the time. The only thing I knew is how I felt – empty, unhappy, and unfulfilled. These feelings came along with an insatiable desire to do something about it, so I set out on a journey to fill and fulfill myself. I resolved this would be done through the medium of music – a childhood talent, interest. Well, the mediums (roads) of music and music business didn’t lead to fulfillment, which, as I stated, I had already determined it would. Hence, what you have is a made-up mind + the reality of the polar opposite happening = equaling confusion, frustration, anxiety, depression, hopelessness. The thing I was sure would lead to my happiness and fulfillment led me the opposite way, and I couldn’t bare it. I was heartbroken, wounded, devastated. I crumpled over and shriveled up. I was a shell of myself. I was defeated and I couldn’t hide or cover it up anymore. I was beaten, battered, and broken. The life I was chasing was a pipe dream. I surrendered. It was over.

The LORD YAH has already revealed the intricate details of what I mentioned above, but the other day He reminded me of the other side to the equation. I felt empty you see, so I ran TO things (music, childhood talent) I reasoned would fulfill me, but that’s only half the story. The truth of the matter is I was actually running FROM (and off) my pain, my past, my hurt, my brokenness. Actually, I didn’t know it was there! Unknowingly, I didn’t want to face or deal with it. I didn’t want to confront it, so my running TO my fulfillment was actually me running FROM my pain!! Therefore, the LORD did not allow me to be successful in something I was good at because His will, His plan, His purpose was for me to know my pain – know it was there, know I was influenced by it my whole life. I was making choices and decisions out of pain I didn’t even know was there!

The truth of the will of the Father, the gospel of the Son, and the glorious and indwelling power of the Holy Ghost is to reveal, convict, redeem, restore, and set free – free from the effects of sin, pain, shame, your past, and anything else contrary to life and peace.

I’ve been freed for purpose. I now make choices out of pure love, not ignorant pain. My spirit man is awakened. My soul has been and is being purified and set free. My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. This is the will of the Father in Yahusha Ha’Mashiach concerning you. All made possible by the plan & command of God the Father, through the blood of the Son, by the illumination & drawing of the Holy Ghost. Amen.

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David Ran Because He Could Kill Him‼️

It takes a big person to exercise their power. It takes an even bigger person to sacrifice or withhold their power. During Jesus’s betrayal and arrest in the Garden of Gethsemane, we see Judas and the others coming upon with torches, swords, and clubs. Peter, always the one to “jump out the window,” responds by taking out his sword and cutting a servant of the high priest ear off. Jesus immediately responds by telling him to put his sword up and then says something interesting. “Do you think that I cannot call on my Father, and that He would send me more than 12 legions of angels (72,000) right now? How then would the scriptures be fulfilled?” (Matt. 26:53-54) You see, everything Jesus did or did not do was to fulfill the Scriptures of the prophets – the Father’s will. He could have exercised his power as the Son of God and summoned a host of angels to help Him out and to prevent everything! Practically speaking, He also had every right to do so. It was not like He was an evil man guilty of anything! However, that would have been his will, not the Father’s! The Father’s will was for the Son of Man to go the way it was written of Him! (Matt. 26:24) So, what did He do? He suppressed, sacrificed, and withheld his will, power, and authority because He trusted in the will, power, and authority of the Father!

It is normal school of thought to believe David fled from the presence of Saul because he wanted to kill him, so he ran out of fear for his life. I beg to differ. Fear played a part, but it was not because he feared Saul. Rather, it was that he feared God! The Holy Spirit opened my eyes to something in this story. You see, Saul WANTED to kill David, but David COULD HAVE killed Saul. Big difference. In other words, Saul could have the desire to kill David all he wanted, but nothing did or would have ever happened because the Lord was with David. The anointing of the Holy Spirit was like a forcefield around him, so Saul could not have killed him no matter how much he wanted! And we know he tried many times! In contrast, Saul was finished. The Spirit of the Lord departed from him and an evil spirit (of fear) from the Lord distressed and tormented him. The spiritual forcefield around him was no longer there, so David COULD HAVE killed him. Practically speaking, he had every right to do so. It was not like he was an evil man guilty of anything! But what did he do? He suppressed, sacrificed, and withheld his power of being an anointed vessel of God, the next king of Israel, and would not touch or raise a hand against the “Lord’s anointed,” even though the Spirit of God had left him! This was extraordinary! David feared the Lord, trusting in His will, power, and authority! This was why David was a man with a heart like God’s!