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I Was Running…

I was talking to my wife and son the other night and the LORD reminded me of the depths of my spiritual calling/purpose.

Ten years ago, I had reached a crossroads in my life, which I didn’t or couldn’t discern as a crossroads at the time. The only thing I knew is how I felt – empty, unhappy, and unfulfilled. These feelings came along with an insatiable desire to do something about it, so I set out on a journey to fill and fulfill myself. I resolved this would be done through the medium of music – a childhood talent, interest. Well, the mediums (roads) of music and music business didn’t lead to fulfillment, which, as I stated, I had already determined it would. Hence, what you have is a made-up mind + the reality of the polar opposite happening = equaling confusion, frustration, anxiety, depression, hopelessness. The thing I was sure would lead to my happiness and fulfillment led me the opposite way, and I couldn’t bare it. I was heartbroken, wounded, devastated. I crumpled over and shriveled up. I was a shell of myself. I was defeated and I couldn’t hide or cover it up anymore. I was beaten, battered, and broken. The life I was chasing was a pipe dream. I surrendered. It was over.

The LORD YAH has already revealed the intricate details of what I mentioned above, but the other day He reminded me of the other side to the equation. I felt empty you see, so I ran TO things (music, childhood talent) I reasoned would fulfill me, but that’s only half the story. The truth of the matter is I was actually running FROM (and off) my pain, my past, my hurt, my brokenness. Actually, I didn’t know it was there! Unknowingly, I didn’t want to face or deal with it. I didn’t want to confront it, so my running TO my fulfillment was actually me running FROM my pain!! Therefore, the LORD did not allow me to be successful in something I was good at because His will, His plan, His purpose was for me to know my pain – know it was there, know I was influenced by it my whole life. I was making choices and decisions out of pain I didn’t even know was there!

The truth of the will of the Father, the gospel of the Son, and the glorious and indwelling power of the Holy Ghost is to reveal, convict, redeem, restore, and set free – free from the effects of sin, pain, shame, your past, and anything else contrary to life and peace.

I’ve been freed for purpose. I now make choices out of pure love, not ignorant pain. My spirit man is awakened. My soul has been and is being purified and set free. My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. This is the will of the Father in Yahusha Ha’Mashiach concerning you. All made possible by the plan & command of God the Father, through the blood of the Son, by the illumination & drawing of the Holy Ghost. Amen.

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Surrounded By Death Pt. 2

Shalom beloved! The Grace of Yahuah be multiplied unto you!

I left off talking about the wisdom it takes to respond accordingly in different situations (see previous post for fuller clarity). We arrived at the wisdom of YAH Himself – Yahusha the Messiah – the greatest example of wisdom, discernment, deftness, skill, and EVERYTHING else! Period! In looking at His life, in the context of His public ministry, we see Him always at odds and under some measure of scrutiny, rebuke, or (wicked) device from the religious leaders and high society of His day. My point from the previous post was this: In light of peoples’ mental state in this day and age – the frailty or sensitivity of it – should we be mindful and careful about how we say things? Answer? Sure! We need to be sensitive to others’ feelings, weaknesses, etc. It’s called compassion. We are human too and have our own problems and weaknesses in different or perhaps the same areas. However, the other perspective to this point is this: Do I exercise this mindfulness, this carefulness, this sensitivity to everyone regardless of the situation? This may seem like an easy answer to most, and perhaps I’m being a little “ABC” here, but when you have children (I have 4) there’s always a necessity, at least with my kids anyway, to make the point and then break it down even further to them, giving them different sides to the main point. Which, now that I think about it, could actually be making it more complicated for them to understand the main idea at all, but such is life! We live in a complicated world! They’ll be fine lol. I guess you could say I’m prepping them for some of the real world challenges they’ll encounter lol.

The Culmination

The Wisdom of Elohim finds Himself in (another) back and forth with the Jews in John 10. The spirit of the chapter is both parties appear to reach severe exasperation levels with one another, as they have dishonored Him to a dangerous degree (two chapters before) by saying He was a Samaritan and was demon-possessed! Wow! Then, they accuse Him of not being forthright of His identity, claiming He was “leaving them in suspense.” The Messiah appears exasperated too, as He seeks to finalize this mounting opposition by telling them the truth of their inability to see and receive Him – they weren’t His sheep to begin with. Then, to bring it home (literally I might add) He said Himself and the Father were one – unified in essence, will, power, Spirit, etc.! Whoa! Now, here’s where it gets really good and this is the culmination of the point(s) of this writing. They proceeded to pick up stones to kill Him, thus Him being surrounded by death. What should He do? What should of He had done before? Not let it get to this point? Been more careful about what He said based on His character and His limitless knowledge of the thoughts and intentions of their hearts? Well, in exhilarating fashion, while surrounded by death, He begins talking?!?! Huh?? Actually, He preaches a sermonette if you will – referencing a Scripture, illuminating the passage, and then culminating it in Himself – rendering them foolish and their accusation of “blasphemy” futile! Now, that’s how you handle the schemes of the wicked! That’s how you handle death!

It’s no time to play when evil encompasses you. It’s no time to be humble or sensitive when you’re surrounded by death! It’s time to be bold! It’s time to be fearless! It’s time be sensitive to the Spirit and not sensitive to man’s feelings! Wolves had surrounded the Lamb of YAH and they weren’t their selling “wolf tickets.” They meant business, and on this day the Lamb did too, foiling their plan and making the devices of the people of no effect. (Ps. 33:10) They would get their chance to feast on His flesh, but not today. A time would be coming where He wouldn’t say anything, just as a lamb led to the slaughter would not, but today wasn’t that day. You cannot threaten Life with death. Life humbly laid His down. You know what? Seeing this more closely: the Lord definitely handled this with limitless wisdom, but He actually displayed limitless humility too. Well, that’s maybe for another post! Until next time. Shalom!

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A Faith Mindset

I was talking to a former neighbor of mine this morning and he said something in which the LORD gave me immediate discernment. I was telling him about the cleaning business I started and I half-jokingly mentioned how I could use his help. Immediately, he asked how many accounts I had. I told him, and while still offering to help he politely said I needed to get more clients. I wasn’t offended, not in the least. It was as if the LORD was saying, “If you want people to help you/join your team then you need to give them a reason to. You have to make it worthwhile.” It’s not to say your cause, business, service, ministry, etc., is worthless. It’s just not worthwhile. It’s not worth them leaving other things for. The LORD was definitely showing me something, and I knew immediately what it was.

I hadn’t put the word out about the cleaning business. I told a few people, but I didn’t really promote it. Why? I didn’t want to attract or take on more clients than I could handle. It’s mainly myself doing the cleaning, with the exception of a few family members helping me out from time to time, so I didn’t want a lot of business to come without the proper resources and people to provide service. My mindset was to build the team first and once the team was established then I would seek more clients. While this is a logical or reasonable mindset or motive to have, it’s not one of confidence in the LORD’s faith (in me). It’s a safe mindset, not a faith mindset. It’s an ordinary mentality, not an extraordinary! It’s comfortable, not extreme! This is very intriguing to me, even while I write this! If there’s anyone who has received and beheld the LORD’s extreme, lavish, extraordinary Grace and care these past few years it’s me. So, how could I settle for a safe mentality?!?! I’m not sure, but one thing I do know is this: the Lord Jesus did not lavish me with His love and faith for me to play it safe. I’m going all in and all out with this Grace! I am and will be a great steward and investor of the manifold Grace of God!

The LORD brought this back to my remembrance as well. A few months ago, while contemplating starting the cleaning service, I told my wife to start buying cleaning products. I didn’t have any customers mind you, but I felt the LORD nudging me to say and do that. It wasn’t that long after she bought the products the LORD brought clients. Wow. I will never again slip into a “safe” or ordinary mindset. I was gifted extraordinary Grace to be extraordinary, daring, passionate, extreme. This is me. This is who I am in Him. In the name of the Lord Yeshua of Nazareth. Grace & Peace ✌🏾 Amen.