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Purpose/Destiny

Highway to Heaven: A Driver Driven

There are things that happen in life you just never forget.

I was talking to a man in the gym a few years ago and he asked me what I did for a living. I was working in public transportation as a bus driver at the time, so my immediate reflex was just to say that. However, by way of conviction I caught myself, and for the first time I proceeded to tell (foretell actually) someone my purpose. After I finished telling him to the best of my ability, he replied with a phrase I knew was profound, but didn’t discern more deeply until now.

“Wow. That’s awesome,” he said. You’re giving people a highway to heaven huh?! Wait, what? A highway to heaven? (For some reason I just thought about a ladder, Israel’s ladder 🪜 to be exact, but I’ll explore and save that for another post). The phrase sounded so beautiful, so poetic, and has certainly remained in my spirit until this day.

Do you know upon meditating on this phrase the Spirit of YHVH Elohim has given me other unique, poetic phrases? Phrases like “pathway to purpose,” “interstate to identity,” and “freeway to fulfillment,” just to name a few. What does all of these phrases have in common? You probably caught it by now. In case you didn’t, they all have to do with travel and transportation – the very occupation I was doing at the time! What’s my point? I didn’t tell the guy in the gym my job. I told him (foretold him) my deeper, Spirit-calling purpose, and unbeknownst to him and I, he confirmed it with a phrase that correlated with my present job, but prophesied my future purpose! Neither one of us could have comprehended the depths, the intricacies of that! Well, that is until now. I knew it was profound, as I stated, by the Spirit in me. It resonated immediately, but seeing and understanding it more deeply now is incredible! (This seems to be happening to me a lot lately, and I LOVE it!) I prophesied my purpose to that man, and Yahuah Elohim used him as a vessel to prophesy back to me; correlating, confirming, and to a degree, clarifying the prophecy!

There’s another interesting twist that stands out as I reflect on this event. I was essentially “wrestling” with the Spirit at this particular time as well. Honestly, I had one foot out the door already – feeling, sensing His prompting to leave my job. However, on the other hand, I was/am responsible for a wife, children, etc., so there was a bit of “careful reluctance” initially. It’s similar to Moses or Gideon’s call. YHVH encounters them, and calls and commissions them into their true identity and assignment. Although this is a grand, supernatural, and powerful event, there could exist a timeframe of reluctance – a moment or moments of grappling with the call and the things prohibiting you from entering the call. Gideon was fearful of pretty much everybody. Moses was afraid too, and even tried to disqualify himself because of some sort of speech impediment. In both of their cases and in mine, more confirmation and assurance was needed to pacify our hearts, to ease our minds, to have us know for certain that He is with us! (O’ YAHUAH we love you! YAHUAH we need you! We are fearful, brittle, and mere mortals without YOU! You are our Immortality! Thank you for immortalizing us! In the name of Yahusha Ha’Mashiach)! Prayer ensued, and do you know this confirming, validating event, along with a few others, served as an answer to my prayers and grappling with the Spirit! It was Daddy God’s way of pushing me along, confirming His promptings, and ushering me into His divine purpose for my life. “Yes, son. Go. I AM calling you. I AM with you. I AM that I AM! What a Savior. What a Healer. What a Redeemer. What a Father!

Much has changed since I was called out of my natural occupation into my true identity and purpose four years ago, but then again, not really. I still am in the business of “public transportation,” just in a different way. I still transport people to their destination (destiny) but now it’s not their physical one but their Spiritual one. I still transport my passengers – the people that the Father have given and will give to me – to their destination, but my vehicle now is not a bus. What is my vehicle? What is the mode of transportation? My life’s testimony and my life’s purpose. My life testifies to the Truth; from beginning, to now, and until the end. My life’s purpose reflects the Truth; worshiping and glorifying Him through the good works He has prepared for me to do. Not the (transit) authority’s way. The Authority’s way!

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Inspiration/Enlightenment

I Was Running…

I was talking to my wife and son the other night and the LORD reminded me of the depths of my spiritual calling/purpose.

Ten years ago, I had reached a crossroads in my life, which I didn’t or couldn’t discern as a crossroads at the time. The only thing I knew is how I felt – empty, unhappy, and unfulfilled. These feelings came along with an insatiable desire to do something about it, so I set out on a journey to fill and fulfill myself. I resolved this would be done through the medium of music – a childhood talent, interest. Well, the mediums (roads) of music and music business didn’t lead to fulfillment, which, as I stated, I had already determined it would. Hence, what you have is a made-up mind + the reality of the polar opposite happening = equaling confusion, frustration, anxiety, depression, hopelessness. The thing I was sure would lead to my happiness and fulfillment led me the opposite way, and I couldn’t bare it. I was heartbroken, wounded, devastated. I crumpled over and shriveled up. I was a shell of myself. I was defeated and I couldn’t hide or cover it up anymore. I was beaten, battered, and broken. The life I was chasing was a pipe dream. I surrendered. It was over.

The LORD YAH has already revealed the intricate details of what I mentioned above, but the other day He reminded me of the other side to the equation. I felt empty you see, so I ran TO things (music, childhood talent) I reasoned would fulfill me, but that’s only half the story. The truth of the matter is I was actually running FROM (and off) my pain, my past, my hurt, my brokenness. Actually, I didn’t know it was there! Unknowingly, I didn’t want to face or deal with it. I didn’t want to confront it, so my running TO my fulfillment was actually me running FROM my pain!! Therefore, the LORD did not allow me to be successful in something I was good at because His will, His plan, His purpose was for me to know my pain – know it was there, know I was influenced by it my whole life. I was making choices and decisions out of pain I didn’t even know was there!

The truth of the will of the Father, the gospel of the Son, and the glorious and indwelling power of the Holy Ghost is to reveal, convict, redeem, restore, and set free – free from the effects of sin, pain, shame, your past, and anything else contrary to life and peace.

I’ve been freed for purpose. I now make choices out of pure love, not ignorant pain. My spirit man is awakened. My soul has been and is being purified and set free. My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. This is the will of the Father in Yahusha Ha’Mashiach concerning you. All made possible by the plan & command of God the Father, through the blood of the Son, by the illumination & drawing of the Holy Ghost. Amen.

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Inspiration/Enlightenment

Surrounded By Death Pt. 2

Shalom beloved! The Grace of Yahuah be multiplied unto you!

I left off talking about the wisdom it takes to respond accordingly in different situations (see previous post for fuller clarity). We arrived at the wisdom of YAH Himself – Yahusha the Messiah – the greatest example of wisdom, discernment, deftness, skill, and EVERYTHING else! Period! In looking at His life, in the context of His public ministry, we see Him always at odds and under some measure of scrutiny, rebuke, or (wicked) device from the religious leaders and high society of His day. My point from the previous post was this: In light of peoples’ mental state in this day and age – the frailty or sensitivity of it – should we be mindful and careful about how we say things? Answer? Sure! We need to be sensitive to others’ feelings, weaknesses, etc. It’s called compassion. We are human too and have our own problems and weaknesses in different or perhaps the same areas. However, the other perspective to this point is this: Do I exercise this mindfulness, this carefulness, this sensitivity to everyone regardless of the situation? This may seem like an easy answer to most, and perhaps I’m being a little “ABC” here, but when you have children (I have 4) there’s always a necessity, at least with my kids anyway, to make the point and then break it down even further to them, giving them different sides to the main point. Which, now that I think about it, could actually be making it more complicated for them to understand the main idea at all, but such is life! We live in a complicated world! They’ll be fine lol. I guess you could say I’m prepping them for some of the real world challenges they’ll encounter lol.

The Culmination

The Wisdom of Elohim finds Himself in (another) back and forth with the Jews in John 10. The spirit of the chapter is both parties appear to reach severe exasperation levels with one another, as they have dishonored Him to a dangerous degree (two chapters before) by saying He was a Samaritan and was demon-possessed! Wow! Then, they accuse Him of not being forthright of His identity, claiming He was “leaving them in suspense.” The Messiah appears exasperated too, as He seeks to finalize this mounting opposition by telling them the truth of their inability to see and receive Him – they weren’t His sheep to begin with. Then, to bring it home (literally I might add) He said Himself and the Father were one – unified in essence, will, power, Spirit, etc.! Whoa! Now, here’s where it gets really good and this is the culmination of the point(s) of this writing. They proceeded to pick up stones to kill Him, thus Him being surrounded by death. What should He do? What should of He had done before? Not let it get to this point? Been more careful about what He said based on His character and His limitless knowledge of the thoughts and intentions of their hearts? Well, in exhilarating fashion, while surrounded by death, He begins talking?!?! Huh?? Actually, He preaches a sermonette if you will – referencing a Scripture, illuminating the passage, and then culminating it in Himself – rendering them foolish and their accusation of “blasphemy” futile! Now, that’s how you handle the schemes of the wicked! That’s how you handle death!

It’s no time to play when evil encompasses you. It’s no time to be humble or sensitive when you’re surrounded by death! It’s time to be bold! It’s time to be fearless! It’s time be sensitive to the Spirit and not sensitive to man’s feelings! Wolves had surrounded the Lamb of YAH and they weren’t their selling “wolf tickets.” They meant business, and on this day the Lamb did too, foiling their plan and making the devices of the people of no effect. (Ps. 33:10) They would get their chance to feast on His flesh, but not today. A time would be coming where He wouldn’t say anything, just as a lamb led to the slaughter would not, but today wasn’t that day. You cannot threaten Life with death. Life humbly laid His down. You know what? Seeing this more closely: the Lord definitely handled this with limitless wisdom, but He actually displayed limitless humility too. Well, that’s maybe for another post! Until next time. Shalom!

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Inspiration/Enlightenment

The Grace Exchange

“Are you a motivational speaker or something?”

Masako is a wonderful lady who works at the Wawa in my local area. Her customer service is incredible and she radiates positive energy, serving customers with grace and a warmth unseen in these times. I immediately went to her line when I heard she was there, not that I was told she was there. She is so jolly and upbeat you can hear her before you see her. When it was my turn to check out she welcomed me to the store and greeted me warmly as she does everyone, but after her greeting I began to lavish her with the love, grace, and gratitude she gives out. I don’t think this was an every day occurrence for her because as I was returning the Love she was clearly taken back. She looked at me smiling with red cheeks and said, “Are you a motivational speaker or something?”

“Yes,” I replied emphatically, me being the one taken back this time. Now, I wasn’t taken back by what she said, although it is a nice, complimentary thing to say to someone. Rather, I was taken back because at that exact moment I knew YAH was at work – revealing, confirming, and affirming my identity through someone who sensed but didn’t realize the depths of what was said. “How did you know that?” (Better translated, “How did you know who I was)?”

“Because you have a way (I would say The Way) of making people feel good. You motivated my spirit!” How can a perfect stranger confirm one’s identity perfectly? Answer: flesh and blood did not reveal it. No one told her I was a motivator of people. I for sure didn’t. My Father Gracefully revealed my identity to her by the flow and exchange of Grace between her and I. Grace always reveals and confirms identity. Wait a minute. Grace is The Way (the means) of making people feel good? Yes! The Way of making people feel loved, feel special, feel authenticated? Yes! You better believe it! Now go out and exchange Grace!!

Masako gives out grace daily, allowing her light to shine before men/mankind (Matt. 5:16). By the Grace of the LORD YAH in me I gave her Grace in return – stimulating her Grace supply! The effect? Her spirit was motivated, her heart was glad, her cheeks were red, and she was given divine insight into the identity of a stranger. Now, those are “special effects” if you ask me! She was given discernment into who I was as a result of the ministration of Grace. Wow. This Grace is glorious. This Grace is beautiful. This Grace is confirming! This Grace is everlasting! Yahusha the MessiYAH!! Ahh!!

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Inspiration/Enlightenment

A Faith Mindset

I was talking to a former neighbor of mine this morning and he said something in which the LORD gave me immediate discernment. I was telling him about the cleaning business I started and I half-jokingly mentioned how I could use his help. Immediately, he asked how many accounts I had. I told him, and while still offering to help he politely said I needed to get more clients. I wasn’t offended, not in the least. It was as if the LORD was saying, “If you want people to help you/join your team then you need to give them a reason to. You have to make it worthwhile.” It’s not to say your cause, business, service, ministry, etc., is worthless. It’s just not worthwhile. It’s not worth them leaving other things for. The LORD was definitely showing me something, and I knew immediately what it was.

I hadn’t put the word out about the cleaning business. I told a few people, but I didn’t really promote it. Why? I didn’t want to attract or take on more clients than I could handle. It’s mainly myself doing the cleaning, with the exception of a few family members helping me out from time to time, so I didn’t want a lot of business to come without the proper resources and people to provide service. My mindset was to build the team first and once the team was established then I would seek more clients. While this is a logical or reasonable mindset or motive to have, it’s not one of confidence in the LORD’s faith (in me). It’s a safe mindset, not a faith mindset. It’s an ordinary mentality, not an extraordinary! It’s comfortable, not extreme! This is very intriguing to me, even while I write this! If there’s anyone who has received and beheld the LORD’s extreme, lavish, extraordinary Grace and care these past few years it’s me. So, how could I settle for a safe mentality?!?! I’m not sure, but one thing I do know is this: the Lord Jesus did not lavish me with His love and faith for me to play it safe. I’m going all in and all out with this Grace! I am and will be a great steward and investor of the manifold Grace of God!

The LORD brought this back to my remembrance as well. A few months ago, while contemplating starting the cleaning service, I told my wife to start buying cleaning products. I didn’t have any customers mind you, but I felt the LORD nudging me to say and do that. It wasn’t that long after she bought the products the LORD brought clients. Wow. I will never again slip into a “safe” or ordinary mindset. I was gifted extraordinary Grace to be extraordinary, daring, passionate, extreme. This is me. This is who I am in Him. In the name of the Lord Yeshua of Nazareth. Grace & Peace ✌🏾 Amen.

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Inspiration/Enlightenment Purpose/Destiny

Grace: A New Wrinkle

I was in the process of editing and posting a video clip on social media yesterday, and as I was writing the caption the LORD showed me another wrinkle of His Grace in my life.

I was running. I thought I was running to things to fulfill me because I was driven or fueled up by past pain, hurt, failures, etc., and I was. However, yesterday the LORD showed me, within all of the running, I was actually running from the call – His call on my life! I was scared of it. I didn’t want it (think Moses). Like Moses, I wasn’t an eloquent speaker. I stuttered all my life, so the call to lead, minister, and speak the wondrous works of GOD scared me! You have the wrong guy! How is this going to work LORD?!?! You don’t know what You’re talking about! So, an internal battle ensued. On one hand, I knew I was different. I knew I had potential, as there were flashes of promise at different points throughout my life. On the other, I had a speech impediment which crippled my confidence and despaired my soul! So, as Moses did, I ran. I ran to business to find fulfillment. I ran to music. I ran to things, all in an effort to circumvent or bypass the call! Guess what? All of my vain, futile attempts led me to the wilderness – where I encountered the LORD, just as He planned all along.

I ran from speaking. I would crouch and cower in fear! Now, I live to speak and speak to live. Wow. What a Savior. What a Redeemer. What Grace! The Grace of Moses? You better believe it. In Jesus name.

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Deepening Relationship: Real Love ❤️

REAL LOVE takes responsibility – accepts the challenge, task, or mission – to do what’s necessary – what MUST be done.

I was talking to my son the other day about some negative thoughts (lies) he has allowed to resurface in his mind. He’s been the target of teasing, bullying, and rejection from peers in the past, and the trauma from those experiences had resulted in low self-esteem, a confused identity, and hopelessness – believing the lies you’re not good enough and no one cares. Fast forward a little: the Grace of GOD appeared to me, revolutionized my life, freeing me from the very same powers of lies and limiting beliefs that have plagued my son! I am now validated and equipped to help him by the mercies of GOD, so in a very real way I was saved to save my son! We have been won over by the Lord’s love to win people over by the Lord’s love – the essence of the gospel!

In the midst of me ministering to him and our relationship getting better and stronger in the passage of time, those old thoughts, lies, and feelings of hopelessness began to creep and seep back into my son’s mind. I noticed something had been bothering him for a few days, so the Lord, in His Grace, had me take him out on a beautiful spring day to spend time together. I thought I was just taking him out to workout with me, but the Lord had other thoughts. Aren’t you glad His thoughts are higher than ours? (Isa. 55:9) LORD you are so great! O the depths of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of GOD! His judgments unsearchable! His ways past finding out! (Rom. 11:33)

After our workout, we sat on a park bench and began to talk – the mental and spiritual portion of our bonding! As I was comforting and encouraging him with the gospel, the Lord Jesus reminded me of the vision He showed me, the purpose He called me to, the need He summoned me to meet: “Ben! Ben! (This is) REAL LOVE!”

Real Love sees a person or people in desperate need and accepts the responsibility to help them by giving yourself. Because when you really care and when you truly love somebody, you give up (sacrifice) yourself – your life and way of life – for them. Is not this the mission and love of Jesus? In that very moment, at the very time with my son, that is exactly what I did, what I was doing, and what I will continue do. Daddy GOD, King Jesus, By Holy Spirit, thank you! Eternally grateful with eternity in mind. In Jesus name.

Watch our workout 🏋️‍♀️ video in previous post! ❤️