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The Joseph Calling Pt. 1

I was talking to my daughter a few weeks ago about the Grace of YHVH in my life – how real He is, the things He’s shown me, and how the same thing which happened to people in the Bible happened to me. She didn’t seem all that convinced, so I explained by comparing a season in the life of Joseph with a season in my life to illustrate my claim. I still don’t think she was convinced, and that’s ok. She’s still very young. (I just had a thought: I don’t think the basis of teaching my children biblical truths is for them to understand YHVH or His Word better. That’s the overall motive, but I think it’s for them to understand me better – as a person who lives and speaks the gospel, as a son of Him, as a man, as a father who reflects the Father! Therefore, by me reflecting Him they gain more of an understanding of Him in an authentic way. It’s like Yahusha and His disciples for example. He wasn’t just another Rabbi teaching students. It was the Father sending the Son – the perfect reflection and expression of Himself – to father them in an authentic relationship! It’s not important she understands right now. What’s more important is I am convinced and I understand, and I live and continue to speak those convictions to my children whether they “get it” or not!) I was in deep thought when I finished talking to her, overwhelmed with gratitude and humility for what YAHUAH has done in my life. It was a moment for me, and I wanted to capture and document it.

The two years in which Joseph sat in prison after the chief butler/cupbearer forgot about him were the hardest two years of his life. After interpreting the cupbearer’s dream while they both are imprisoned, and in essentially a last ditch effort to free himself from bondage, Joseph begs the cupbearer to remember him when he’s released and show him kindness by telling Pharaoh about him so he can get out. Joseph wanted no part of the dungeon, and honestly, who does? He further pleads his case for grace by telling the cupbearer he was not only stolen out of his native land by unlawful force, but he also had done nothing while in Egypt deserving of prison. Joseph was right to a degree. He had done nothing. Things were done to him. In fact, he was only in bondage because his master’s wife lied on him! However, it’s possible to be right to a degree and not right in full. So, with this judgment in mind, his own judgment mind you, he looked to the cupbearer who represented his last chance at freedom; his only hope to see the light.

Examining this exchange with the cupbearer more closely, we can see the internal complexities and impurities in Joseph, namely resentment. He was hurt about what was done to him – what his brothers did to him, how he was regarded as nothing and sold as property, how he was lied on, how he was undeserving of all these events – and he harbored bitterness and resentment because of it. The past still had a grip on him in other words. The pain, the offenses, and the slights were too much to bear, and while his concern was freeing his body from physical bondage, YHVH’s concern was freeing his soul from spiritual bondage. All the resentment, all the bitterness, all the blame-shifting, all the potential revenge had to die. Why? Well, (1) all of those things had marred his identity and judgment (2) because his purpose awaited; an assignment to govern an entire land’s food supply in a drought, to “save much people alive,” including the lives of the very people he harbored ill feelings towards. There’s no place for soul bondage in purpose. All of it needed to die.

Joseph’s plan/hopes were dashed when the cupbearer “forgot” about him. His dreams were crushed. Has your hopes ever been dashed? Has your dreams ever been crushed? Days turned into months for Joseph, and then months slowly turned into years. I love how the Amplified translates Psalms 105:18. It gives accurate insight into the soul of Joseph. It says “his soul went into the iron,” which means as those days and months passed with no cupbearer in sight, Joseph began to confine himself to confinement. His hope waned from a lot, to a little, to none at all. He was going to die a prisoner in a dungeon. So, with this judgment in mind, his own judgment mind you, Joseph reserved himself to contentment in bondage. All of his trying, planning, and hoping were over. In other words, he surrendered his will – the exact thing he had to do – so Elohim could make him see and know Him and himself on a deeper level.

Some would also say since Joseph’s true identity and purpose was that of a high position of influence, a powerful work needed to be done inside him to rid him of any fleshy desires or motives. I agree! In other words, when Pharoah did send for Joseph and put him in charge of everything, he probably could care less about what came with the position – success, fame, influence, notoriety, women, etc. Joseph was dead. His will was surrendered. All he lived for and cared about was worshiping and honoring YAHUAH with what was left of him – his new, true self. This was salvation and sanctification occurring simultaneously in my perspective. Joseph had never known YAHUAH like this. He knew of Him and was a decent man at heart, but this was different. This was El-Shaddai converting him to His will for his life and bringing him into the reality of the dreams He gave him thirteen years before.

Joseph did not sit in prison for those two years by happenstance; it wasn’t the result of the cupbearer forgetting about him. YHVH was sovereignly working behind the scenes – as He had done all of his life – humbling and preparing His son for the purpose He predestined for his life. What a story. What Grace!

Stay tuned for Pt. 2! Grace & Peace ✌🏾

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Highway to Heaven: A Driver Driven

There are things that happen in life you just never forget.

I was talking to a man in the gym a few years ago and he asked me what I did for a living. I was working in public transportation as a bus driver at the time, so my immediate reflex was just to say that. However, by way of conviction I caught myself, and for the first time I proceeded to tell (foretell actually) someone my purpose. After I finished telling him to the best of my ability, he replied with a phrase I knew was profound, but didn’t discern more deeply until now.

“Wow. That’s awesome,” he said. You’re giving people a highway to heaven huh?! Wait, what? A highway to heaven? (For some reason I just thought about a ladder, Israel’s ladder 🪜 to be exact, but I’ll explore and save that for another post). The phrase sounded so beautiful, so poetic, and has certainly remained in my spirit until this day.

Do you know upon meditating on this phrase the Spirit of YHVH Elohim has given me other unique, poetic phrases? Phrases like “pathway to purpose,” “interstate to identity,” and “freeway to fulfillment,” just to name a few. What does all of these phrases have in common? You probably caught it by now. In case you didn’t, they all have to do with travel and transportation – the very occupation I was doing at the time! What’s my point? I didn’t tell the guy in the gym my job. I told him (foretold him) my deeper, Spirit-calling purpose, and unbeknownst to him and I, he confirmed it with a phrase that correlated with my present job, but prophesied my future purpose! Neither one of us could have comprehended the depths, the intricacies of that! Well, that is until now. I knew it was profound, as I stated, by the Spirit in me. It resonated immediately, but seeing and understanding it more deeply now is incredible! (This seems to be happening to me a lot lately, and I LOVE it!) I prophesied my purpose to that man, and Yahuah Elohim used him as a vessel to prophesy back to me; correlating, confirming, and to a degree, clarifying the prophecy!

There’s another interesting twist that stands out as I reflect on this event. I was essentially “wrestling” with the Spirit at this particular time as well. Honestly, I had one foot out the door already – feeling, sensing His prompting to leave my job. However, on the other hand, I was/am responsible for a wife, children, etc., so there was a bit of “careful reluctance” initially. It’s similar to Moses or Gideon’s call. YHVH encounters them, and calls and commissions them into their true identity and assignment. Although this is a grand, supernatural, and powerful event, there could exist a timeframe of reluctance – a moment or moments of grappling with the call and the things prohibiting you from entering the call. Gideon was fearful of pretty much everybody. Moses was afraid too, and even tried to disqualify himself because of some sort of speech impediment. In both of their cases and in mine, more confirmation and assurance was needed to pacify our hearts, to ease our minds, to have us know for certain that He is with us! (O’ YAHUAH we love you! YAHUAH we need you! We are fearful, brittle, and mere mortals without YOU! You are our Immortality! Thank you for immortalizing us! In the name of Yahusha Ha’Mashiach)! Prayer ensued, and do you know this confirming, validating event, along with a few others, served as an answer to my prayers and grappling with the Spirit! It was Daddy God’s way of pushing me along, confirming His promptings, and ushering me into His divine purpose for my life. “Yes, son. Go. I AM calling you. I AM with you. I AM that I AM! What a Savior. What a Healer. What a Redeemer. What a Father!

Much has changed since I was called out of my natural occupation into my true identity and purpose four years ago, but then again, not really. I still am in the business of “public transportation,” just in a different way. I still transport people to their destination (destiny) but now it’s not their physical one but their Spiritual one. I still transport my passengers – the people that the Father have given and will give to me – to their destination, but my vehicle now is not a bus. What is my vehicle? What is the mode of transportation? My life’s testimony and my life’s purpose. My life testifies to the Truth; from beginning, to now, and until the end. My life’s purpose reflects the Truth; worshiping and glorifying Him through the good works He has prepared for me to do. Not the (transit) authority’s way. The Authority’s way!

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Grace: A New Wrinkle

I was in the process of editing and posting a video clip on social media yesterday, and as I was writing the caption the LORD showed me another wrinkle of His Grace in my life.

I was running. I thought I was running to things to fulfill me because I was driven or fueled up by past pain, hurt, failures, etc., and I was. However, yesterday the LORD showed me, within all of the running, I was actually running from the call – His call on my life! I was scared of it. I didn’t want it (think Moses). Like Moses, I wasn’t an eloquent speaker. I stuttered all my life, so the call to lead, minister, and speak the wondrous works of GOD scared me! You have the wrong guy! How is this going to work LORD?!?! You don’t know what You’re talking about! So, an internal battle ensued. On one hand, I knew I was different. I knew I had potential, as there were flashes of promise at different points throughout my life. On the other, I had a speech impediment which crippled my confidence and despaired my soul! So, as Moses did, I ran. I ran to business to find fulfillment. I ran to music. I ran to things, all in an effort to circumvent or bypass the call! Guess what? All of my vain, futile attempts led me to the wilderness – where I encountered the LORD, just as He planned all along.

I ran from speaking. I would crouch and cower in fear! Now, I live to speak and speak to live. Wow. What a Savior. What a Redeemer. What Grace! The Grace of Moses? You better believe it. In Jesus name.

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It’s You, But It’s Still New Pt. 1

Your purpose is you. It is made up of the good works which have been foreordained in eternity past and reserved in Heaven for you to do, released (graced) on you at the time appointed by Father through the Spirit of Christ. Now, if that’s not enough, the good works set aside for you and released in you actually formulate into a person – yup you guessed right – Jesus Christ. That alone just blew (and will continually blow) my mind, so with that I’m going to stop short of my original content for this post and meditate on that for the rest of day. Actually, for the rest of my life. Have a blessed and beautiful day!

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Deepening Relationship: Real Love ❤️

REAL LOVE takes responsibility – accepts the challenge, task, or mission – to do what’s necessary – what MUST be done.

I was talking to my son the other day about some negative thoughts (lies) he has allowed to resurface in his mind. He’s been the target of teasing, bullying, and rejection from peers in the past, and the trauma from those experiences had resulted in low self-esteem, a confused identity, and hopelessness – believing the lies you’re not good enough and no one cares. Fast forward a little: the Grace of GOD appeared to me, revolutionized my life, freeing me from the very same powers of lies and limiting beliefs that have plagued my son! I am now validated and equipped to help him by the mercies of GOD, so in a very real way I was saved to save my son! We have been won over by the Lord’s love to win people over by the Lord’s love – the essence of the gospel!

In the midst of me ministering to him and our relationship getting better and stronger in the passage of time, those old thoughts, lies, and feelings of hopelessness began to creep and seep back into my son’s mind. I noticed something had been bothering him for a few days, so the Lord, in His Grace, had me take him out on a beautiful spring day to spend time together. I thought I was just taking him out to workout with me, but the Lord had other thoughts. Aren’t you glad His thoughts are higher than ours? (Isa. 55:9) LORD you are so great! O the depths of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of GOD! His judgments unsearchable! His ways past finding out! (Rom. 11:33)

After our workout, we sat on a park bench and began to talk – the mental and spiritual portion of our bonding! As I was comforting and encouraging him with the gospel, the Lord Jesus reminded me of the vision He showed me, the purpose He called me to, the need He summoned me to meet: “Ben! Ben! (This is) REAL LOVE!”

Real Love sees a person or people in desperate need and accepts the responsibility to help them by giving yourself. Because when you really care and when you truly love somebody, you give up (sacrifice) yourself – your life and way of life – for them. Is not this the mission and love of Jesus? In that very moment, at the very time with my son, that is exactly what I did, what I was doing, and what I will continue do. Daddy GOD, King Jesus, By Holy Spirit, thank you! Eternally grateful with eternity in mind. In Jesus name.

Watch our workout 🏋️‍♀️ video in previous post! ❤️

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I’ve Entered Kairos Time‼️

Time is measured in minutes; life is measured in moments. – Mark Batterson, Pastor & Bestselling Author

If I told you how the Lord Jesus has been moving and leading me by His Spirit the last two years you wouldn’t believe me. I began writing this post a month ago, and as I was putting the finishing touches on it I was led to the latest YouVersion reading plan by Pastor Mark Batterson entitled “Win The Day,” which is also the title of his latest book. The plan is phenomenal to say the least, as Pastor Mark outlines 8 habits to help you “win the day.” As I arrived at Day 7 of the plan (Habit 6) my mouth dropped. I COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT I WAS READING!! Are you kidding me?!?! The sixth habit is everything I began to write about weeks before!! Talk about confirmation!! Confirmation is the business of the Holy Spirit, and these past two years have been breathtaking!! So buckle up and prepare yourselves!! You’re now in kairos time‼️

The ancient Greeks observed two words for time – chronos and kairos. Chronos time is where we get chronological – the standard, everyday measurement of time in sequence. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, etc., sum up chronos, and while this time is important, it is, after all, natural, which always has to bow or be subject to a different, deeper, supernatural time.

Kairos time is divine time, and according to the ancient Greeks (and Wikipedia) is defined as “the right, critical, proper, or opportune moment for action.” This time signifies a moment of grave importance – a moment which must be interpreted, discerned, taken advantage of, acted on!!

Beloved, I don’t know where you are at in life or what season of life you’re in, but if you have been granted the ability or the capacity (which we all have) by the Everlasting Father, the Father of Light(s) to discern a kairos moment you need to act, and that without fear!! There are so many examples in Scripture to illustrate and validate this point it’s a shame, but I’m reminded of the story of four leprous men who decided to “go for broke” by coming upon the army of an enemy camp who had besieged their city until there was no food to ask/look for – you guessed it – food!! Outcasts or “goners” BEFORE their city was famine because of their condition, they basically said, “Why sit here until we die? We’re dead anyway, so let’s go!!” It turns out the Lord had caused the enemy army to hear the noise of war – chariots, horses, etc., and they fled in fear leaving all their goods to be plundered and seized!!

The LORD is our refuge, our strength, the Rock of Ages, our enduring Protector!! Let’s act in faith and trust and be about the Father’s business. Why sit here until we die? This is Kairos time!!