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The Joseph Calling Pt. 1

I was talking to my daughter a few weeks ago about the Grace of YHVH in my life – how real He is, the things He’s shown me, and how the same thing which happened to people in the Bible happened to me. She didn’t seem all that convinced, so I explained by comparing a season in the life of Joseph with a season in my life to illustrate my claim. I still don’t think she was convinced, and that’s ok. She’s still very young. (I just had a thought: I don’t think the basis of teaching my children biblical truths is for them to understand YHVH or His Word better. That’s the overall motive, but I think it’s for them to understand me better – as a person who lives and speaks the gospel, as a son of Him, as a man, as a father who reflects the Father! Therefore, by me reflecting Him they gain more of an understanding of Him in an authentic way. It’s like Yahusha and His disciples for example. He wasn’t just another Rabbi teaching students. It was the Father sending the Son – the perfect reflection and expression of Himself – to father them in an authentic relationship! It’s not important she understands right now. What’s more important is I am convinced and I understand, and I live and continue to speak those convictions to my children whether they “get it” or not!) I was in deep thought when I finished talking to her, overwhelmed with gratitude and humility for what YAHUAH has done in my life. It was a moment for me, and I wanted to capture and document it.

The two years in which Joseph sat in prison after the chief butler/cupbearer forgot about him were the hardest two years of his life. After interpreting the cupbearer’s dream while they both are imprisoned, and in essentially a last ditch effort to free himself from bondage, Joseph begs the cupbearer to remember him when he’s released and show him kindness by telling Pharaoh about him so he can get out. Joseph wanted no part of the dungeon, and honestly, who does? He further pleads his case for grace by telling the cupbearer he was not only stolen out of his native land by unlawful force, but he also had done nothing while in Egypt deserving of prison. Joseph was right to a degree. He had done nothing. Things were done to him. In fact, he was only in bondage because his master’s wife lied on him! However, it’s possible to be right to a degree and not right in full. So, with this judgment in mind, his own judgment mind you, he looked to the cupbearer who represented his last chance at freedom; his only hope to see the light.

Examining this exchange with the cupbearer more closely, we can see the internal complexities and impurities in Joseph, namely resentment. He was hurt about what was done to him – what his brothers did to him, how he was regarded as nothing and sold as property, how he was lied on, how he was undeserving of all these events – and he harbored bitterness and resentment because of it. The past still had a grip on him in other words. The pain, the offenses, and the slights were too much to bear, and while his concern was freeing his body from physical bondage, YHVH’s concern was freeing his soul from spiritual bondage. All the resentment, all the bitterness, all the blame-shifting, all the potential revenge had to die. Why? Well, (1) all of those things had marred his identity and judgment (2) because his purpose awaited; an assignment to govern an entire land’s food supply in a drought, to “save much people alive,” including the lives of the very people he harbored ill feelings towards. There’s no place for soul bondage in purpose. All of it needed to die.

Joseph’s plan/hopes were dashed when the cupbearer “forgot” about him. His dreams were crushed. Has your hopes ever been dashed? Has your dreams ever been crushed? Days turned into months for Joseph, and then months slowly turned into years. I love how the Amplified translates Psalms 105:18. It gives accurate insight into the soul of Joseph. It says “his soul went into the iron,” which means as those days and months passed with no cupbearer in sight, Joseph began to confine himself to confinement. His hope waned from a lot, to a little, to none at all. He was going to die a prisoner in a dungeon. So, with this judgment in mind, his own judgment mind you, Joseph reserved himself to contentment in bondage. All of his trying, planning, and hoping were over. In other words, he surrendered his will – the exact thing he had to do – so Elohim could make him see and know Him and himself on a deeper level.

Some would also say since Joseph’s true identity and purpose was that of a high position of influence, a powerful work needed to be done inside him to rid him of any fleshy desires or motives. I agree! In other words, when Pharoah did send for Joseph and put him in charge of everything, he probably could care less about what came with the position – success, fame, influence, notoriety, women, etc. Joseph was dead. His will was surrendered. All he lived for and cared about was worshiping and honoring YAHUAH with what was left of him – his new, true self. This was salvation and sanctification occurring simultaneously in my perspective. Joseph had never known YAHUAH like this. He knew of Him and was a decent man at heart, but this was different. This was El-Shaddai converting him to His will for his life and bringing him into the reality of the dreams He gave him thirteen years before.

Joseph did not sit in prison for those two years by happenstance; it wasn’t the result of the cupbearer forgetting about him. YHVH was sovereignly working behind the scenes – as He had done all of his life – humbling and preparing His son for the purpose He predestined for his life. What a story. What Grace!

Stay tuned for Pt. 2! Grace & Peace ✌🏾

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I Was Running…

I was talking to my wife and son the other night and the LORD reminded me of the depths of my spiritual calling/purpose.

Ten years ago, I had reached a crossroads in my life, which I didn’t or couldn’t discern as a crossroads at the time. The only thing I knew is how I felt – empty, unhappy, and unfulfilled. These feelings came along with an insatiable desire to do something about it, so I set out on a journey to fill and fulfill myself. I resolved this would be done through the medium of music – a childhood talent, interest. Well, the mediums (roads) of music and music business didn’t lead to fulfillment, which, as I stated, I had already determined it would. Hence, what you have is a made-up mind + the reality of the polar opposite happening = equaling confusion, frustration, anxiety, depression, hopelessness. The thing I was sure would lead to my happiness and fulfillment led me the opposite way, and I couldn’t bare it. I was heartbroken, wounded, devastated. I crumpled over and shriveled up. I was a shell of myself. I was defeated and I couldn’t hide or cover it up anymore. I was beaten, battered, and broken. The life I was chasing was a pipe dream. I surrendered. It was over.

The LORD YAH has already revealed the intricate details of what I mentioned above, but the other day He reminded me of the other side to the equation. I felt empty you see, so I ran TO things (music, childhood talent) I reasoned would fulfill me, but that’s only half the story. The truth of the matter is I was actually running FROM (and off) my pain, my past, my hurt, my brokenness. Actually, I didn’t know it was there! Unknowingly, I didn’t want to face or deal with it. I didn’t want to confront it, so my running TO my fulfillment was actually me running FROM my pain!! Therefore, the LORD did not allow me to be successful in something I was good at because His will, His plan, His purpose was for me to know my pain – know it was there, know I was influenced by it my whole life. I was making choices and decisions out of pain I didn’t even know was there!

The truth of the will of the Father, the gospel of the Son, and the glorious and indwelling power of the Holy Ghost is to reveal, convict, redeem, restore, and set free – free from the effects of sin, pain, shame, your past, and anything else contrary to life and peace.

I’ve been freed for purpose. I now make choices out of pure love, not ignorant pain. My spirit man is awakened. My soul has been and is being purified and set free. My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. This is the will of the Father in Yahusha Ha’Mashiach concerning you. All made possible by the plan & command of God the Father, through the blood of the Son, by the illumination & drawing of the Holy Ghost. Amen.

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Surrounded By Death Pt. 2

Shalom beloved! The Grace of Yahuah be multiplied unto you!

I left off talking about the wisdom it takes to respond accordingly in different situations (see previous post for fuller clarity). We arrived at the wisdom of YAH Himself – Yahusha the Messiah – the greatest example of wisdom, discernment, deftness, skill, and EVERYTHING else! Period! In looking at His life, in the context of His public ministry, we see Him always at odds and under some measure of scrutiny, rebuke, or (wicked) device from the religious leaders and high society of His day. My point from the previous post was this: In light of peoples’ mental state in this day and age – the frailty or sensitivity of it – should we be mindful and careful about how we say things? Answer? Sure! We need to be sensitive to others’ feelings, weaknesses, etc. It’s called compassion. We are human too and have our own problems and weaknesses in different or perhaps the same areas. However, the other perspective to this point is this: Do I exercise this mindfulness, this carefulness, this sensitivity to everyone regardless of the situation? This may seem like an easy answer to most, and perhaps I’m being a little “ABC” here, but when you have children (I have 4) there’s always a necessity, at least with my kids anyway, to make the point and then break it down even further to them, giving them different sides to the main point. Which, now that I think about it, could actually be making it more complicated for them to understand the main idea at all, but such is life! We live in a complicated world! They’ll be fine lol. I guess you could say I’m prepping them for some of the real world challenges they’ll encounter lol.

The Culmination

The Wisdom of Elohim finds Himself in (another) back and forth with the Jews in John 10. The spirit of the chapter is both parties appear to reach severe exasperation levels with one another, as they have dishonored Him to a dangerous degree (two chapters before) by saying He was a Samaritan and was demon-possessed! Wow! Then, they accuse Him of not being forthright of His identity, claiming He was “leaving them in suspense.” The Messiah appears exasperated too, as He seeks to finalize this mounting opposition by telling them the truth of their inability to see and receive Him – they weren’t His sheep to begin with. Then, to bring it home (literally I might add) He said Himself and the Father were one – unified in essence, will, power, Spirit, etc.! Whoa! Now, here’s where it gets really good and this is the culmination of the point(s) of this writing. They proceeded to pick up stones to kill Him, thus Him being surrounded by death. What should He do? What should of He had done before? Not let it get to this point? Been more careful about what He said based on His character and His limitless knowledge of the thoughts and intentions of their hearts? Well, in exhilarating fashion, while surrounded by death, He begins talking?!?! Huh?? Actually, He preaches a sermonette if you will – referencing a Scripture, illuminating the passage, and then culminating it in Himself – rendering them foolish and their accusation of “blasphemy” futile! Now, that’s how you handle the schemes of the wicked! That’s how you handle death!

It’s no time to play when evil encompasses you. It’s no time to be humble or sensitive when you’re surrounded by death! It’s time to be bold! It’s time to be fearless! It’s time be sensitive to the Spirit and not sensitive to man’s feelings! Wolves had surrounded the Lamb of YAH and they weren’t their selling “wolf tickets.” They meant business, and on this day the Lamb did too, foiling their plan and making the devices of the people of no effect. (Ps. 33:10) They would get their chance to feast on His flesh, but not today. A time would be coming where He wouldn’t say anything, just as a lamb led to the slaughter would not, but today wasn’t that day. You cannot threaten Life with death. Life humbly laid His down. You know what? Seeing this more closely: the Lord definitely handled this with limitless wisdom, but He actually displayed limitless humility too. Well, that’s maybe for another post! Until next time. Shalom!

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Surrounded By Death

My family and I were conversing this morning and we arrived at the subject of mental health – being ignorant of others’ mental state, being careful of how you say things to people with that ignorance in mind, and just the overall carefulness one has to have in their reactions and interactions with people in different situations. It was a great conversation, and although it is true we should be careful and mindful of what we say, and more importantly how we say it, (we talked about that too!) we should never have or adopt a state of mind and think it’s right to apply that way of thinking to every circumstance of life. There’s a balance to life, a rhythm if you will. This balance or rhythm to life requires skill, a deftness, a flexibility where one understands, depending on the situation, what may work in this instance may not work or apply in that one. What may call for humility in this situation – walking away, cooler heads prevailing, etc. – may call for boldness and fearlessness in that. Where am I going with all of this? I say all of this to arrive at the Son of Elohim, the Chosen One of YAH – His greatness and wisdom embodied!!

Side note: I try not to say or write what “they” say the English transliteration/translation of His name is anymore, but that’s for another post.

An overview of the public ministry and life of The Life finds Him repeatedly at odds with people, particularly the religious leaders and “high society” of His day. It wasn’t that He necessarily opposed them, in the sense of starting altercations and bothering them about every little thing, but they opposed Him – deeply bothered (whether they knew that or not) by the Soap of YAH (Mal’akiy 3:2) showing up and airing their dirty laundry! And check this out: He “aired their dirty laundry” not by way of the flesh – the way of man – although He took on flesh and is the Son of Man (Adam) – but the way of His Father – righteous judgment! Wow! See and behold the character of Yahuah Elohim! Aww shoot! I have to go, but this deserves a Part 2! Until next time! Grace and Peace!

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The Grace Exchange

“Are you a motivational speaker or something?”

Masako is a wonderful lady who works at the Wawa in my local area. Her customer service is incredible and she radiates positive energy, serving customers with grace and a warmth unseen in these times. I immediately went to her line when I heard she was there, not that I was told she was there. She is so jolly and upbeat you can hear her before you see her. When it was my turn to check out she welcomed me to the store and greeted me warmly as she does everyone, but after her greeting I began to lavish her with the love, grace, and gratitude she gives out. I don’t think this was an every day occurrence for her because as I was returning the Love she was clearly taken back. She looked at me smiling with red cheeks and said, “Are you a motivational speaker or something?”

“Yes,” I replied emphatically, me being the one taken back this time. Now, I wasn’t taken back by what she said, although it is a nice, complimentary thing to say to someone. Rather, I was taken back because at that exact moment I knew YAH was at work – revealing, confirming, and affirming my identity through someone who sensed but didn’t realize the depths of what was said. “How did you know that?” (Better translated, “How did you know who I was)?”

“Because you have a way (I would say The Way) of making people feel good. You motivated my spirit!” How can a perfect stranger confirm one’s identity perfectly? Answer: flesh and blood did not reveal it. No one told her I was a motivator of people. I for sure didn’t. My Father Gracefully revealed my identity to her by the flow and exchange of Grace between her and I. Grace always reveals and confirms identity. Wait a minute. Grace is The Way (the means) of making people feel good? Yes! The Way of making people feel loved, feel special, feel authenticated? Yes! You better believe it! Now go out and exchange Grace!!

Masako gives out grace daily, allowing her light to shine before men/mankind (Matt. 5:16). By the Grace of the LORD YAH in me I gave her Grace in return – stimulating her Grace supply! The effect? Her spirit was motivated, her heart was glad, her cheeks were red, and she was given divine insight into the identity of a stranger. Now, those are “special effects” if you ask me! She was given discernment into who I was as a result of the ministration of Grace. Wow. This Grace is glorious. This Grace is beautiful. This Grace is confirming! This Grace is everlasting! Yahusha the MessiYAH!! Ahh!!

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Grace!

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A Faith Mindset

I was talking to a former neighbor of mine this morning and he said something in which the LORD gave me immediate discernment. I was telling him about the cleaning business I started and I half-jokingly mentioned how I could use his help. Immediately, he asked how many accounts I had. I told him, and while still offering to help he politely said I needed to get more clients. I wasn’t offended, not in the least. It was as if the LORD was saying, “If you want people to help you/join your team then you need to give them a reason to. You have to make it worthwhile.” It’s not to say your cause, business, service, ministry, etc., is worthless. It’s just not worthwhile. It’s not worth them leaving other things for. The LORD was definitely showing me something, and I knew immediately what it was.

I hadn’t put the word out about the cleaning business. I told a few people, but I didn’t really promote it. Why? I didn’t want to attract or take on more clients than I could handle. It’s mainly myself doing the cleaning, with the exception of a few family members helping me out from time to time, so I didn’t want a lot of business to come without the proper resources and people to provide service. My mindset was to build the team first and once the team was established then I would seek more clients. While this is a logical or reasonable mindset or motive to have, it’s not one of confidence in the LORD’s faith (in me). It’s a safe mindset, not a faith mindset. It’s an ordinary mentality, not an extraordinary! It’s comfortable, not extreme! This is very intriguing to me, even while I write this! If there’s anyone who has received and beheld the LORD’s extreme, lavish, extraordinary Grace and care these past few years it’s me. So, how could I settle for a safe mentality?!?! I’m not sure, but one thing I do know is this: the Lord Jesus did not lavish me with His love and faith for me to play it safe. I’m going all in and all out with this Grace! I am and will be a great steward and investor of the manifold Grace of God!

The LORD brought this back to my remembrance as well. A few months ago, while contemplating starting the cleaning service, I told my wife to start buying cleaning products. I didn’t have any customers mind you, but I felt the LORD nudging me to say and do that. It wasn’t that long after she bought the products the LORD brought clients. Wow. I will never again slip into a “safe” or ordinary mindset. I was gifted extraordinary Grace to be extraordinary, daring, passionate, extreme. This is me. This is who I am in Him. In the name of the Lord Yeshua of Nazareth. Grace & Peace ✌🏾 Amen.

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Grace: A New Wrinkle

I was in the process of editing and posting a video clip on social media yesterday, and as I was writing the caption the LORD showed me another wrinkle of His Grace in my life.

I was running. I thought I was running to things to fulfill me because I was driven or fueled up by past pain, hurt, failures, etc., and I was. However, yesterday the LORD showed me, within all of the running, I was actually running from the call – His call on my life! I was scared of it. I didn’t want it (think Moses). Like Moses, I wasn’t an eloquent speaker. I stuttered all my life, so the call to lead, minister, and speak the wondrous works of GOD scared me! You have the wrong guy! How is this going to work LORD?!?! You don’t know what You’re talking about! So, an internal battle ensued. On one hand, I knew I was different. I knew I had potential, as there were flashes of promise at different points throughout my life. On the other, I had a speech impediment which crippled my confidence and despaired my soul! So, as Moses did, I ran. I ran to business to find fulfillment. I ran to music. I ran to things, all in an effort to circumvent or bypass the call! Guess what? All of my vain, futile attempts led me to the wilderness – where I encountered the LORD, just as He planned all along.

I ran from speaking. I would crouch and cower in fear! Now, I live to speak and speak to live. Wow. What a Savior. What a Redeemer. What Grace! The Grace of Moses? You better believe it. In Jesus name.

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The Dream or The Dream Giver?

Holes 2 Whole Podcast | Season 1 Episode 12

Are you running (piloting) your dream or is your dream running you? Although it’s true the LORD God prepared your purpose before He prepared you, purpose is not designed to be more important than the person. The Father wills to refine your character, redeem your iniquity, and release you into purpose at His appointed time – when you’re strengthened, settled, and grounded in Him. All dreams (purposes) have a destination – the Dream Giver. Keep your eyes on the Giver & not the dream, and you will steward the dream with wisdom instead of overextending yourself beyond your capacity. Even if you do mess up and overwork or overextend yourself, no need to fret. The LORD has made provision for that. Rest in the Giver. Rely on what He taught & is teaching you. Wait on the LORD. In Jesus name.

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The Kind of Young Lady

The kind of young lady I want my for my son,

Shines like the sun, a special someone,

A young lady who is different, stands out from the crowd,

Of herself she is proud – not quiet nor loud,

She is proud of herself, but pride is not found,

Her beauty is meekness, her heart and mind sound,

Young lady are you there? Show yourself strong,

Be a guide for my son, keep him from wrong,

The kind of young lady who pushes (you) for better,

Who wants to spend time with you and your family – everyone together!

No sneak, covert meet-ups to do things in secret,

Does a girl like this live? Yes, I believe it!

The kind of young lady who becomes part of the fam,

Who is like a daughter to me, now that would be grand!

The kind of young lady who loves herself perfect,

Who knows she is priceless, who doesn’t get nervous,

The kind of young lady who’s mind is set on the future,

Who thinks long-term, who knows the Supreme Ruler!

The kind of young lady who is smart & can teach,

Who’s humble enough to be teachable, one you can reach!

With the words that you speak, she listens so well!

This is the young lady for you, her last name should be Bell!

This is the girl for you son, I felt led to stress,

A young lady like this, for you, would be best.

Love,

Dad