I was in the process of editing and posting a video clip on social media yesterday, and as I was writing the caption the LORD showed me another wrinkle of His Grace in my life.
I was running. I thought I was running to things to fulfill me because I was driven or fueled up by past pain, hurt, failures, etc., and I was. However, yesterday the LORD showed me, within all of the running, I was actually running from the call – His call on my life! I was scared of it. I didn’t want it (think Moses). Like Moses, I wasn’t an eloquent speaker. I stuttered all my life, so the call to lead, minister, and speak the wondrous works of GOD scared me! You have the wrong guy! How is this going to work LORD?!?! You don’t know what You’re talking about! So, an internal battle ensued. On one hand, I knew I was different. I knew I had potential, as there were flashes of promise at different points throughout my life. On the other, I had a speech impediment which crippled my confidence and despaired my soul! So, as Moses did, I ran. I ran to business to find fulfillment. I ran to music. I ran to things, all in an effort to circumvent or bypass the call! Guess what? All of my vain, futile attempts led me to the wilderness – where I encountered the LORD, just as He planned all along.
I ran from speaking. I would crouch and cower in fear! Now, I live to speak and speak to live. Wow. What a Savior. What a Redeemer. What Grace! The Grace of Moses? You better believe it. In Jesus name.